words that are my own
If only I had done better
If only I had tried harder to
If only
But at times I did do better
But no-one saw
But I did it for me
So that when I was feeling that I could have done more, I remember there were times when I did
A reminder that regret is almost futile
And ‘if only’ is just two words
Sometimes I am small
The stars are above
My eyes shut tight
So tiny
And the weight, the heaviness of the world is above me
Around me
I can feel small
somehow
amidst the gloom
amongst the debris
we must find a little light, a glow, a glimmer
at this moment in time though, we need a glow, a bit of warmth a hug from a soft light
a gentle guide to pull us through
did we dance together yesterday
or was it in my imagination
a kind of hope that maybe it was real
that we danced
maybe sang even
together?
It hurt
and so I think , as I am still angry, some day I will find you
(its not a threat
more of a promise)
and you will know the pain you have caused me
you will feel how it was
you may not see me
I may not even be near
but you will know it is I
the pain will be there and
you shall feel how it was. Maybe
some way or another the feel good thing is top of the list
it must happen
as soon as i open my eyes in the morning
i must feel good
not bad
not letting the darkness in but pushing it away
must be positive
slippers on feet clad
down stairs
planning food
how to feel good not bad
is this healthy, can my gut take it
drink, cleanse, eat food but I still want it to taste nice not just healthy
positive thoughts
foget the anger, let go,( it’ll be something else this time next year someone said)
nothing is that terrible to make you feel bad. no reason to frown , smile
yes smile , that helps
world of words 